Tough Weeks and Mamas Love

I had a really rough week. So rough that those around me had to give me “multiple reality checks” and remind me of all the areas that I am blessed and all the things that I could be struggling with that I’m not.

Many people in the world have issues with debt and having a financial strain of any kind can easily cause stress, headaches, insomnia, and so many more physical symptoms.

After paying 1158.00 for a car inspection, and knowing the other one needed to be done with no emergency savings, I felt defeated.

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I am a salaried employee. I work over 80 hours a week and my husband has as well, for a young couple we make very well for our age. Yet with two incomes, we still have times where money gets tight. And for me,  I take it as a personal defeat when that is normally not the case at all.

As I was venting to my mom I cried out ” I want to be self- sufficient!” and she calmly replied “that’s the issue right there. You want to step into your strength and not into God’s, and until you change that thinking you will always find yourself in this place.”

And just as a mother’s words usually do, her wisdom was the reality check that I needed.

I work so hard because honestly, I want to depend on myself. I need that reassurance that I can handle anything that comes my way and not have to leave anything to “chance” or in all honesty ” faith”.

I want God to come along so I can say I believe and say he has my back, but truthfully I operate in a space of constantly trying to have my own back.

This causes me stress and the feeling of aloneness because I am in fact stepping away from his help and venturing out on my own.

This week was another reminder that God is always doing the work in me. That trials and tribulations that come, come to teach us a lesson and it’s up to us to find it.

This week my mom helped me realize what the lesson was.

Once I calmed down and mentally gave up the worries and the stress, miraculously my husband and I  made 90 dollars in 2 hours from old posts that we had made on the facebook marketplace.

While 90 may be a lot, it was the symbolism for me. God was showing me that he would supply if I would just remove my hands and allow him to do what he does best and fill the areas where I lack.

Matthew 6:25-34

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can anyone of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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